Every since I can remember I was afraid
I forget the reason, but I remember being no older then 5, while living in a safe suburb, when I fashioned an idea for for a bulletproof vest made from crushed soda cans woven together with strings
It was only a few seconds later that I abandoned the idea for what you could say to it being, “obviously ineffective”
even for a 5 year old’s mind
I remember a few weeks back thinking laughing about this to myself, thinking you would find it funny, that I was some kind of inventor ready to be patented at 5.
Maybe some things are better left unsaid.
I’ve come to accept that maybe I haven’t changed much since
I wonder if most people are like that
Where they are the same person they where as within their earliest memories
These kind of thoughts makes your heart look at the worst of the world and wonder what happened
How grateful one like myself should feel if some application of the universe could be the cause
That in a world of everlasting life, there would always be something to look forward to
That if all hope was lost I would always have a purpose
I could sacrifice my own life in removing the humans who did such things
I look at all of the unnecessary pain that this may have caused me in life
Out of network? o yeah
Unnecessary movements
But I’m happy to be who I am
To also always remember that anyone was capable of anything, and to not destroy yourself in pursuit